I like ballroom dancing. Most of the time (but not always) I’m “the lady”, so I’m pretty good at following a lead. It’s great when someone has a strong lead, ‘cause it’s easier to trust that they know what they’re doing, and easier to “see” what’s going to happen next. (Of course the “seeing” is a lot easier if I’m used to the person’s lead, too). If they have a really good lead, I can manage most dances fairly well without any idea what I’m doing!
But I know that if the guy doesn’t lead well, or doesn’t know the dance, I start leading. This is all well and good if my partner’s fine with it. But some aren’t…and well, it takes two to tango.
Preferably two who aren’t fighting to be in control every step of the way. That gets messy, the fighting. Feet stood on (with heels!), shoulders wrenched, really sore arms, sometimes a sore back/neck…and that’s if I don’t trip up (or trip my partner), or bump into every other couple that’s in our path, or the furniture, or the walls. Because, between the two of us, direction’s a little bit questionable.
And in knowing all this, I know I have a little problem when it comes to following God. I suck at following His lead.
He knows what He’s doing. He knows how to make my life into a beautiful dance-into a work of art. But I can’t seem to help trying to seize control. And I can’t seem to help trying to figure out what’s happening next. … every time I seize control, I’m demonstrating a lack of trust-saying I have a better idea, or that I know the dance better than Him; I’m changing direction, probably so that someone gets hurt.
And the dancing isn’t so pretty. And I get sore. And resentful-I wish that I could just bend the world to my will…but as you know, that simply doesn’t work. Knowing doesn’t stop the wishing though.
This is a matter of trust that (should just) get easier with practice.
SO, ladies and brave, brave gents! Let’s practice dancing with Jesus! He’s a forgiving, patient teacher, and a wonderful dancer, who never errs. Let’s trust Him with the lead!
It’s an exhilarating experience.
And I can’t wait to see how the dance turns out in the end. ^.^